I have a baaaaaaad case of the Mondays today, y’all.
It’s not all bad though.
For the first time in probably 18 months I finally feel like I’m back on track with a regular fitness routine. I’m enjoying the workouts, I’m eating well and I’m sleeping really well too. The stars have aligned. What I’m struggling with is figuring out how to lose weight while taking Lexapro.
It’s kind of feeling like Mission: Impossible.
I was watching YouTube videos this morning looking for some motivation and inspiration and I came across a woman talking about the Monitor Your Weight app. She likes to use it in conjunction with MyFitnessPal (which I’ve recently started using again) so I figured I’d check it out.
It was a humbling experience to say the least.
After I input all of my personal information and updated the settings, here’s what I see when I open the app:
*I’m sharing my weight to be transparent about this whole issue. Please do not compare my current stats with your own as there are so many different factors that come into play. I share this as my new starting point so that I have something to compare my future progress to. As someone who has struggled with body image for most of my life, I usually don’t focus on the scale but in my situation and at this point in my journey, I choose to. For now.
My eyes navigate straight to “OVERWEIGHT”. Of course. Why wouldn’t they?
I’m not gonna get all “debbie downer” about this but it does make me upset because I’ve been working my way back to a regular fitness schedule and it just hasn’t been enough.
135 pounds is the weight I’m accustomed to. It’s been my average weight since I was in high school. When I was in high school I thought I was fat. When I was 135 pounds and working out, I felt like I was fit and I was very happy with my weight because I felt strong. The only time it’s been higher is while I was pregnant with each of my boys. I weighed in at 158 and 179 respectively prior to my c-sections.
135 pounds is what I weighed when I started taking Lexapro about a year ago. I haven’t been 135 pounds since. In fact, as you can see, I’ve gained about 30 pounds. I have changed nothing else.
Weight gain has been enough for people to stop taking Lexapro altogether. I’m not ready to think about that right now. Lexapro has been my lifeline. I’m not ready to take any chances by quitting it and I am working on other ways to resolve this.
My weight loss plan
- Begin taking my Wellbutrin. Wellbutrin was prescribed to me during one of my last visits with my psychiatrist. I noticed that weight gain was starting to be an issue for me and she prescribed the Wellbutrin to offset it. I started taking it and then I stopped because I figured if I actually started working out again and eating well that I could do it on my own. Wrong…. it’s not working. Since I have the medicine to use, I might as well try it.
- Track meals and calories in MyFitnessPal. MyFitnessPal really is a huge help when it comes to weight loss. I’ve used it before and I started using it again last week. It gives great insight and really helps me keep my macros in check.
- Track meals, workouts and progress in my fitness planner. I’ll share more about this very, very soon.
- Assess progress on a monthly basis. This includes weighing in, taking measurements and decide what is working and what isn’t.
- Find a fitness tracker. I had a Fitbit Blaze and I loved everything about it except for the fact that I had to charge it just about every day. While I didn’t mind at first, it grew on me and quickly got annoying. I ended up selling it and now I’m researching other fitness trackers to find something that works better for me.
In my late twenties I didn’t need any Lexapro. Regular workouts and healthy eating was it for me. I seemed to have my depression and anxiety managed really well with healthy living. It didn’t seem so easy then but after experiencing what I’m going through right now…I’m definitely struggling at the moment.
I’m determined and I’m not giving up.
This roadblock is reminding me just how much I need to really focus on my fitness right now.
The good news is… lifting still makes me happy. I love it. I just need to figure out how to get closer to my goals while taking Lexapro.