If I could some up 2015 in one word, it would be grief. I was so overwhelmed by grief last year that I’ve struggled to do the things I’m most passionate about: fitness and writing. The year felt like it went by so fast. I can say that 2015 wrapped up much better than it started. For that, I am grateful.
1. What did you do in 2015 that you’d never done before?
Met with a psychiatrist.
2. Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions, and will you make more for 2016?
I have no idea what, if any, resolutions I had last year? For 2016 I’m focused on living more seasonally. Living seasonally is a newer concept for me. The only season I’d really bask in is Christmas. Because lights. And that’s not even a full season, but I’ve always loved the atmosphere from Thanksgiving to New Year’s Day. If this concept interests you, you have to visit Lisamarie’s blog, Paper & Glam. She also hosts a book club if reading is your thing.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My sister-in-law Heather had my youngest nephew in June.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
5. What countries did you visit?
Just the one I live in, USA. We did travel to Arkansas in December for a family Christmas. We all needed that! It was so much fun.
6. What would you like to have done in 2016 that you didn’t do in 2015?
I want to feel happier and less overcome by grief, anger and sadness.
7. What dates from 2015 will be etched upon your memory and why?
January 5: Diesel passed away (one year ago today)
April 7: Mike passed away suddenly at the age of 47 while celebrating his first anniversary in Las Vegas.
April 18: Mike’s funeral (it was comforting to see so many members of his family)
8. What was your biggest achievement of this year?
Staying alive? Or maybe it sounds better if I say that I got help for myself by making appointments with a therapist and psychiatrist. The therapist didn’t work out but I still meet with my psychiatrist.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I don’t really feel like I had any failures. I just spent much of the year feeling lost.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Depression made a comeback, along with its sidekick, anxiety. No physical injuries but my heart was broken multiple times.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
An art piece. It’s a big canvas with various art mediums (paint, paper mache) with a bright blue peacock on it.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My husband’s. He was so supportive of me even while I was feeling defeated and at my absolute worst.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Politicians I guess? And the way the media always twists things around.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Besides the normal large bills? Christmas presents for family. I love buying gifts for other people!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Our Arkansas trip.
16. What song will always remind you of 2015?
17. Compared to this time last year, are you a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?
b) Same? (I don’t like this question!)
c) Richer ~ moreso in life than just money
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Everything? I didn’t feel like doing much of anything most of the year.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
I’m honestly not sure? I’d say grieving but that’s not possible. You have to grieve.
20: How did you spend Christmas?
With family in Arkansas! We also had several small get togethers with various family members.
21. Did you fall in love in 2015?
Yes, with my husband all over again. I’m not usually a sap, but dang! He’s been amazing.
22. What was your favorite TV Program?
Stalker (gone now #sadface), Nashville, Dateline and Teen Mom OG
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
I don’t hate.
24. What was the best book you read?
The last one I finished was My Fight/Your Fight by Ronda Rousey. I’m currently reading The Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo. I’m about halfway through and a lot of it is a bit strange but I love the strategies outlined for purging items from your home and keeping only those that spark joy. We can always use more joy!
25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Old favorites! Snow Patrol and Alanis Morissette’s Jagged Little Pill album
26. What did you want and get?
More peace. It took most of the year but I felt it quite a bit towards the end.
27. What did you want and not get?
More time to myself. It’s always hard for me to do but I know I need to.
28. What was your favorite film of 2015?
Ummmm… Inside Out? I didn’t see a lot of new movies. My family did love watching Dolly Parton’s TV movie, The Coat of Many Colors. Miss G has watched it I think 4 times!
29. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
I turned 32 on March 25th and I was home with my family. I received a surprise delivery of beautiful blue roses from my momma and my husband got me Kempswiches!
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not dealing with so much loss in such a short period of time.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2015?
Leggings, tunics, hoodies and sweatpants.
32. What kept you sane?
Most of the year I was NOT sane. ;) The support from my husband and close family and friends made all the difference though.
33. What political issue stirred you the most?
The police brutality stuff going on. The issues with race. There shouldn’t be any.
34. Who did you miss?
Diesel, Mike, myself.
35. Who was the best new person you met?
Gavin! My nephew born in June :)
36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015?
Grieving takes time. Going through it can feel like you’re drowning in quicksand but going through and feeling all the feelings is the only way you get through it. Take all the time you need. Grieving comes in waves and never really ends.